re: Dealing with death of a parent

My Mom passed away on June 3rd. She went into Ochsner Hospital in New Orleans on January 10. They wanted to release her to a SNF in early February but I had her transported to Baton Rouge and put in to one of the SNF's that my company runs so that I could get in and out of the facility because at the time there was no vistation in SNF's and hasdd we placed her ina SNF in New Orleans no one would have had access. Every day for nearly four months I visited her before work, during my lunch break, and after work. I would leave home and be gone for 14-15 hours per day. During this time we had four different hospital stays. Finally on Memorial Day they gave me the talk about Hospice. I made the decision to put her in Hospice and within 2 days she passed away. I am grateful for the time that I was able to spend with her during that four month period as cumulatively it was probably more time than I had spent with her in the last 10 years. For a while, I could not even drive home down Bluebonnet because every night I would turn on Picardy to visit her on my way home and when I no longer had to do that I would break down. It's no longer at that point but I am still not able to look at any pictures without breaking down. After 80 days it has gotten a little easier but still very difficult and I know that the first Thanksgiving and Christmas without her will be difficult as well.