re: What was the lowest/darkest/toughest time in ur life & how did u pull yourself out of it?

Lost the people who raised me. the first girl I was engaged to was killed when she was 20, the friends I grew up with are dead from overdoses, murder, suicides or are in prison. Lost the first record deal we had in the early 2000s because of my antics, dealt with a horrible xanax addiction and many failed relationships with both terrible and great women.

I became too angry to die (suicide). Luckily I can play all the instruments I need to make blackened death metal. So I bought a house, shut myself off from the rest of the world. They talk about love, and hope and this or that,..sometimes hate is all you need.