re: Tomorrow is a very big day for me

8 to 10 a day isn't really that much. Trust me when I say this. I'm not gonna get into it but that wouldn't even get me out of bed when I was using. I've been clean 12 years. Yes it sucks yes it's hard, but you can do it by yourself. I did. You just have to be done with it. You can't quit for momma or daddy, you have to quit for YOU. I have a great job now, family, kids. Life is awesome sober. I promise you, you can quit. It may feel like you wanna die coming off them, but you won't. Then when you get over the physical addiction, it's all mental and on you. I could spend days talking about my past and how I fricked up, but it's truly behind me. Yes there are some days I still wanna shoot stuff in my veins, but I remember 1 thing. What I have to lose if I start using again. I'm here if you need to talk.