re: I don't know what to do. I just want to end it

DL, speaking as someone who in just the last month was in a serious auto accident, totaling both cars, have suffered the loss of a close uncle a few days before Christmas, have dealt with the death of my wife's son (talked about here) just before New Year's and who was with his father when he died last Monday morning and buried him yesterday, your situation (just like mine) is temporary and not worth you giving up your life for. Being worn out from what life throws at you is natural. Believe me. I'm worn out from the emotional roller coaster and pain. We all get our share of challenges, but I promise you, God is not through with you and has a plan for you. There are people who may not be in your life today, but who will be someday, and they will be grateful and changed for the better by your deeds.

Hang in there and have faith.