re: moral question for the OT: is using Adderall cheating

Same with me, Hammer.

I have a thousand thoughts going through my mind at all times UNLESS I'm incredibly interested in something. If that happens I hyperfocus on that subject to the point of near obsession.

I'll be driving down the highway and suddenly realize I've been counting powerline poles for the past 20 miles while at the same time having a conversation with my wife, planning a future sculpture series, and working out the details of a woodworking project.

All at the same time, simultaneously. It's mentally exhausting!

But on the other hand, hyperfocus is almost like a super power. It's AWESOME when I'm in a hyperfocus zone. Problem is, I can't just induce hyperfocus at any moment. Most of the time I'm all over the place trying to sort through the myriad of thoughts bombarding my brain and wishing I could hyperfocus on normal things.

That's why I started researching herbal nootropics about 6 months ago. And I'm FAR more focused now than I've ever been. I'm no longer experiencing creativity block. I have much more optimism about planning and finishing a project than ever before.

I just wish I would've done something regarding my clear-as-day HDHD 20 years ago...but there's no need to think about the past. I have a new focus on life and it's great! It's as if there's 20 paths in front of me and a ray of sunshine just broke through the overcast sky to shine upon the right path.