re: People say that suicide is a cowardly act

I know people shite on medications in different threads but I saw what you mentioned you are struggling with and medication can help. If you have already tried that then don’t give up. Sometimes it is trial and error to find what works best for each individual. Yes that is a difficult process to go through while your brain chemistry is changing but hang in there to get through it.

Also our ability to deal with certain things gets better over the years even though at the moment it feels like it won’t

Best wishes for you during this difficult time