re: My girlfriend tried to kill herself

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Well, it's been just over 3 months since the darkest day of my life. I'm posting for all you BAWS that prayed for us and wondered what ever happened here.
My girlfriend is the one who attempted suicide back in June, and I had no idea what to do with my life when it happened. If anyone would like the original thread, you can go here to find it. It will tell you a little backstory.


A LOT has happened since that day. A tremendous amount of highs and a shite ton of lows.. It's been hard dealing with the aftermath. Adding in the pressure of school on top of that, Lord it's been a wild ride lol. Anyways, not a lot of major stuff has happened since then, but I'll fill y'all in if you'd like.

So flash forward to today.. we had been doing a lot better, to be totally honest. We were in love and I was watching out for her as best I could, to make sure she doesn't slip back in to depression. Things were great, honestly. We had mind-blowing sex yesterday and everything was looking up
Hell tbh, our sex life has been fricking incredible this last month or so

But today I get a text message from her that says her ex bf has been messaging her. He comes in saying "I'm sorry" and all that bullshite, just trying to win her back because he found out I fricked. I know that sounds childish, but it's the truth. She was a virgin and he only wants her so he can get laid.

Well, he is the reason she slipped into depression the very first time. He left her and broke her heart, to where she had attempted suicide before (before I was in the picture). Now she believes that he is here and won't do anything like that again, that he isn't going to cheat on her and ruin her again.

So.. flash forward to tonight. I met her after she got off of work and told her "Look: you either want to be with me or you want to be with him. I'm not going to keep doing this bullshite anymore with you of 'me or your ex'."
I told her that I loved her, and really just told it to her from the heart. I let out some things I've been holding in since her suicide attempt and she really got the message that I was really hurt.
So, she told me she was afraid. She said she's afraid of losing me, she's afraid that I'm going to leave her, her ex is going to be the same piece of shite he was before, and that she'll try to come back to me but I will not be there. She's worried she will slip back into that dark hole and this time no one will be there, that she will be scared and all alone and end up killing herself.

I told her that I'd always be there for her, that I wanted to make her my wife ffs, I'm not leaving. But you HAVE to tell him to frick off in order for me to stay..
I just found out she's talking to him AGAIN tonight. She's falling for his lies and bullshite all over again..

So I picked myself up, told myself that this girl will always be someone special to me, someone I will always love, but I had to do what is best for me. So I left her.

It was one of the toughest decisions and subsequent conversations I've ever made.
Leaving the girl you love? Tough shite boys.

What do y'all think I oughta do? I think I'm going to call her mom tomorrow, and tell her to watch her really carefully.. I'm so afraid of what might happen to her right now but I feel like I had to do what is best for my own future. Did I make the wrong decision fellas? Should I have given her another chance? I love this girl but I think that I made the right decision. My heart is heavy right now thinking of all the good times we shared together, but I believe that until she can figure out what she wants it's best for me to have left.
a lot of y'all said I should've left her in the OP back in June, do y'all now think my choice was the right one?


Oh and PS fellers: SHE AINT PREGNANT!!!
Now I don't have to worry about that "I missed" text after we've broken up.

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