Prayers sent to you and your family. Don't be too hard on yourself. I know when I went through my hardest times, exercise was my outlet. A long run helped clear my head, helped me sleep at night, and after a run I was more focused on the foods I was eating. You're still a beast
Been completely out of it for a while now. Just started a new job and moved from LA to Houston, and have been completely out of my routine since all this began in April. I'm actually really surprised I haven't gained more than these 5 lbs. Anyway, I really need to find the motivation and listen to my own advice about exercise as an outlet.