re: Have you ever reached rock bottom?

After six-plus decades of drug abuse, either I haven't yet reached bottom … or I have and I happen to like it.

Gotcha. Hang in there man. Be the best dad you can be and let the rest come to you.

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No, I haven't been able to bring myself to date cause I feel like no one is good enough to be in my son's life... its weird I know..

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I know it can seem there are no good women left in this world, particularly if you spend any amount of time here on the OT. But there are still good decent women out there despite all you read on here. How old is your boy?

Hope that the future will be better, even if I couldn't see it.

Like when you're driving, maybe heading on vacation, you can only see the road and stuff beside it.

You can't see the the beach but you keep going because you hope, you know, it will be there.

And you know that beach will be a lot better than where you are right now. So you keep driving.

Terrible analogy, I know...but I'm still gonna keep driving toward that damn beach!!!

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terrible analogy

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I feel better already! Thx TR

how would you know?

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You imply that you indeed do know what true happiness is

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No I didn't. All that I know for certain is that when I was using drugs, what I thought was happiness was just a temporary fix to trick my brain into believing it was happy.

I did it for so long that I forgot how to have fun naturally. Now I have fun again.

I'm guessing that if you have been doping it up for 6 decades, then you probably forgot what it was like to have fun also.

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For a lot of people, divorce sucks. Then for some, seems like they don't even care. I kinda wish I was more like them.

For me, the hardest part about divorce was when the kids were gone. Man, the house felt so empty. And I would start feeling like a failure as a husband and father. But it's just your brain processing things in a depressed way. Don't believe it. I bet most of the people close to you don't feel anything close to the way you are feeling about yourself.

I feel for you. Unless you've been through it, tough to understand. Just keep plugging away, it always gets better eventually.

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This is why I have mad love for you. Instead of telling your sob story, you give genuine encouragement from personal experience. I miss the Dear Festus threads, I could've used you a few times the past year.

At first medic I thought that you missed something in the tropical weather thread and felt bad. Look first off, you should probably get the F off this website. Honestly you should if shite is that bad. Don't start GMT threads assuming everyone is your friend. Go out and enjoy life.

Also realize that what you do is in your hands and not anyone else's. Look I believe in higher powers and this isn't a bash on that, just know you are in control.

Next- stay focused on being a man for your son. That is always the right thing even if he isn't with you.

Lastly just make today better than yesterday- and aim for that every fricking day. Sure there are some days you may step back but keep moving forward.