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Tiger n Austin
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


My wife's good friend killed himself a few years back. He was born in the Children of God Cult

I've recently come to find out the torture he endured while in the cult..and it makes me cringe.






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Tom288
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


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Currently on celexa and klonopin. I think they work ok but the dose was to low


Well make sure your doctor knows you're struggling with suicidal ideation. Klonopin and Ambien has the potential to increase your depression while decreasing your inhibition which can be a dangerous combination if you're truly struggling with suicide. Just a friendly tip for something to keep an eye on.

Here are some good sites if you ever have questions about your medications, want to know what other people think about them, etc.

Crazy Meds
Psycho-Babble
Crazy Boards

Don't let the "crazy" parts of the titles scare you off, the sites are very informative they just happen to have a slightly sarcastic/dark humor approach to the subject.

Also Klonopin is more of an "extended-release" version of a Benzo in that its onset is slower and it stays in your system longer, which is good for general anxiety and times when you can plan ahead. But if you find yourself struggling with panic attacks or anxiety that tends to pop up quickly you might want to look into shorter-acting Benzos which are quick to pack a punch but can be useful in relieving rapid onset anxiety.

Also, from my personal experience SSRIs, which Celexa is, tend to numb me out emotionally which is nice when you're in the midst of a hell of a storm of depression, but ultimately it can lead to anhedonia and apathy which can be just as painful and harmful as strict depression.

For all I know you know all of this stuff already, but I figured I'd offer some advice from my own experiences with both of those meds just in case you're not completely familiar with them.



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ElroyJetSon
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


Stay strong, man. There will never be another you.





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Michael J Cocks
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


About a month ago my 38 year old cousin that lives down the street from me tried to kill himself. He called me at like 4:30 on a Sunday afternoon (April 14th) and told me "I'm checking out, just calling to tell you bye and that I love you and to take care of that beautiful baby (my little girl)"....he lives about 4 houses down from me, so I dropped the phone and took off running down the street where I found him bleeding out all over his front porch. He was just sitting there in a lawn chair with a calm look on his face like nothing was going on, and had lost about 2 pints of blood at that point (from his left arm/wrist).

He ended up surviving. I had to keep pressure on his arm while we were waiting on the EMT's, and the entire time he was just giggling, had this very calm yet eerie laugh, and he'd tell me every few seconds "just let me go, Mike. I want to go."

I've seen a lot of crazy shite in my life, but this one thing was the craziest. Sitting there literally holding onto my cousin as I'm feeling him slip away, with what felt like more blood than I've ever seen in my life all over me and the porch beneath me. He lost consciousness right when the bus arrived and at that point, I could barely feel his pulse (although mine was very fricking high, I could feel my heart beating in my ears) and I figured he was gone. He was in a coma for 3 days before they shipped him off to a crazy house for a few weeks. He's now back home and I guess "back to normal" whatever that is. Neither one of us has really mentioned that day. I feel like I'm on egg shells every time we talk, like I'm afraid to say anything to him really, but I'm always finding an excuse to go down there and check on him. This was my 4th or 5th time dealing with someone suicidal, but first time that the person actually went through with it or attempted it anyway.






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BananaHammock
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


Unfortunately, I know someone who did.





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Thracken13
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


yes - a close friends father in law did.

about 5 years ago i seriously contemplated it, but couldn't do it. a lot better today and glad I didn't






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Michael J Cocks
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Spend enough years traveling in hell and you may find your willingness to leave it can change.


This. When you see someone going through this, it's so hard to convince them otherwise. I know myself, I'm very fortunate, I've always been able to deal with pain and loss relatively well but I've been in some very dark places. Just a few years ago I was in the darkest of places, and didn't understand what was wrong with me, or why I was in such a rut (I mean I knew why I was hurting mentally, but I couldn't understand why I couldn't shake it). I'm just very blessed to have such a great wife and family in general to help bring me out of it. A lot of people don't have that kind of support system, and when they are on the side of the cliff, they can't find a reason not to jump.

As sad and depressed as I got, I'm not sure I would have considered myself suicidal...but I hated who I was. I just wasn't happy anymore and I'd look around me and see my little girl and beautiful wife and felt like I didn't have a reason to feel this way, yet I still did. It made me feel very guilty to feel so sad and depressed. Somehow I found my way out of it and I thank God everyday that I was pulled back to the "daylight" of the world. And at this moment, I can't even really remember what it felt like to be in that kind of pain. It's like if you break a bone, at the time it hurts so fricking bad, but a few months later when it's healed up, you can't make yourself remember exactly how bad it felt. After dealing with my cousins ordeal a few weeks ago, I see how truly selfish it is to go out that way BUT I can still empathize with anyone that's at that point. I can't sit here and just write someone off or condemn them for feeling that way, even though I can't stand what it does to the people around them.

I also can't stand how some dickbags will talk about how weak or stupid someone is in that situation. Or upon hearing someone killed themselves they respond with "Good" or "Piece of shite." etc. I guess for those who think that way, just be thankful you've never found yourself in the depths of that darkness. Because if you ever felt that kind of pain with no reason to pull yourself out of it, who knows how you're truly gonna react.






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Winkface
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


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And at this moment, I can't even really remember what it felt like to be in that kind of pain. It's like if you break a bone, at the time it hurts so fricking bad, but a few months later when it's healed up, you can't make yourself remember exactly how bad it felt.
Yep. I like to think that it one of those built in things where we aren't really supposed to recall those times very well.






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shiftworker
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You know zero about me




And somehow I still feel like I know too much.






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Jazzbass13
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


friend did it





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WhoDats10
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friend was overweight and he failed out of lsu.. that, and he was ashamed of never kissing a girl and being a virgin. his" crush" also never gave him the time of day. he tried, but he was unsuccessful. he is now in a rehab center or something like that.





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Tom288
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


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And at this moment, I can't even really remember what it felt like to be in that kind of pain. It's like if you break a bone, at the time it hurts so fricking bad, but a few months later when it's healed up, you can't make yourself remember exactly how bad it felt.


Well aren't you one lucky son of a bitch?

I remember everything, every trauma, the endless rumination, the circular self-defeating thoughts that constantly fueled, and still does, my depression. Scientists say there can't be a perpetual motion machine. Look into the mind of any depressed person and you'll find a fully optimized and perfected system.

I suppose the difference between us is your depression was episodic while mine has basically persisted for 15 years. When the bastard is that tenacious it's kind of hard to forget him.

Sometimes when I see my doctor or therapist I tell them how I wish I could experience complete amnesia, just wipe away my entire memory. But that's what makes depression so insidious. It's clever, manipulative, and fully capable of adapting new strategies and means of attack. Oh, you've managed to successfully counter the negative thought that's been occupying your mind for the past few months? No problem, here's a past failure or regret from 5 years ago...chew on that for a while.

I wish I was an omnipotent deity sometimes solely for the ability to take depression, give it an actual consciousness, and then kick the ever living shite out of it for the rest of its life.






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Ted2010
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After being up for 42 hours I slept great last night. Enjoying the country air. Today is a much better day





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tigerskin
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Great. Glad to hear things are better today. Pulling for you.





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TH03
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Good to hear, bud





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Doosh606
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


You're an inspiring dude. I've been having these thoughts for a month or so since my gf of four years left me. I can't believe I was doing it over a girl after reading your story. I woke up and grabbed a knife yesterday morning... Hang in there man





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bbrownso
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


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I've been having these thoughts for a month or so since my gf of four years left me.


One of my friends did it after some on-again off-again crap with one of his girlfriends. That was over 4 years ago and it still hurts to think about it.

Don't let anyone ever let you feel that down. You probably don't realize that you positively affect a number of people everyday. Stay strong.






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bpinson
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


He probably didn't think, but he did it





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JabarkusRussell
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I've struggled with depression all of my adult life. I am running out of strength to keep fighting.





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DanTiger
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re: Do you know someone who has really thought about suicide?


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I'm sure many wont admit it, but I'm sure many have had that thought in their head, even if only for a fleeting second


I disagree. I believe it is very rare that someone would consider such a thing as we are programmed to survive.






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