re: Have any of you had a child die ?

I have had 3 die
The first one was 10 years ago my wife was 6 months preg and he had no heartbeat at the Dr checkup. My wife was forced to deliver him and we had to bury him.
Two years ago my wife was preg with twins and just as in your situation they were given a very low percentage of even being born. They were both born and one of them passed within a day. The other passed about a week and a half later. To this day its hard to go a full day without thinking about them

Yeah it's hard sometimes but you just have to push through and be there for your spouse.

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you have my utmost sympathy

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And mine as well.

My 48 year old son died 2 years ago. It's no better when their older.

I'm not a real "pick yourself by the boot-straps" kind of person, or at least I didn't used to be.

I actually didn't fully understand what being a father and husband meant until our daughters death.

My wife carried her for 8 months. Felt every kick and turn and shift. That physical process usually ends with a baby in your arms to nurture and feed and protect. Our daughter was whisked away to NICU to be put on a respirator.

So my wife's physical journey was incomplete. She physically lost a part of herself and that has been especially hard to process for her. Her struggle has strengthened my resolve to be a good spouse and be there to carry her through.

Also our young son is very confused about death and needs a sense of normalcy. I have to provide that to him.

When the doctors told us she'd never recover - I wanted to run away and hide in a hole. But making the decision to prevent suffering was excruciatingly hard, but was the least we could do for her as parents.

I got to be her dad for the brief glimpse she was here - and if I could have traded places with her, I'd have doe it in a heart beat.

People, places and things come and go. Some stay longer than others and the cruel mystery of life is that we can't know with certainty what will stay and what will go.
So we have to give our entire selves to every moment and every interaction. It's the only way we can honor the incredible people, places and things we have in our lives.

Again, my heart goes out to all who have lost such a big part of their lives and futures.

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I struggle with the thought of losing a child. Sometimes I find myself looking at my little boy more with "Wow, I love him so much but what if something happens?" instead of just being grateful he's healthy and happy.

I don't think that's the way to live but I know I'm not strong enough to deal with something like that.

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I feel the exact same way. I have a 3 year old and a 9 month old and the thought/fear of something happening to them consumes me sometimes.

To all of you who have had to experience this, God must have deemed you to be incredibly strong people. Definitely gonna hug them a little tighter today.

After 13 years my wife still blames herself because her body wasn't physically well to take care of him. She will not listen to anybody telling otherwise.

We had another miscarriage earlier in the pregnancy after the death of my son (about a year and half later) and in some ways that was more difficult than losing my twin son because my daughter was old enough to really understand that we had lost a child and we had to really explain that to her while we ourselves were grieving--something we didn't really have to do when my son died because she was too young to grasp it.

CO, I learned from our experience that many many people have lost children whether during or after the pregnancy and that the feelings of helplessness, guilt and pain are just the norm. time heals, but never removes that.

I take the position of extreme thankfulness for my two healthy lovely vibrant beautiful kids and still think about and miss the two that we were not allowed to experience.

God bless you guys