Has the OT ever discussed 'the call of the void?'

Everyday on the way to work:

"If I total my car, I don't have to go in today."

-me

aka intrusive thoughts

I did once. it went away once I pulled the knife out of his back.

well i didn;t know it had a name. I've had the feeling forever, but it wasn't the idea of hurting someone. One of my earliest memories is of me standing near the edge of a mountain/cliff and wanting to jump. For that reason I don't go near edge of anything because i have a burning desire to fricking jump. I always have the desire to ramp my car into the wall or a ditch, pretty much everything you said.

Yep. Spooky shite. I almost jumped into traffic once walking down the highway. Freaked the hell out of me. I had to come back down and ask myself wtf just happened.

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I've had the feeling forever, but it wasn't the idea of hurting someone. One of my earliest memories is of me standing near the edge of a mountain/cliff and wanting to jump. For that reason I don't go near edge of anything because i have a burning desire to fricking jump. I always have the desire to ramp my car into the wall or a ditch, pretty much everything you said.

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Same. It's really fricking weird

I sometimes get really nervous on a bridge and feel like jerking the steering wheel. I start sweating and grip the wheel very hard as I try my damnedest to think of something a lot more mundane. I never knew there was a name for it. It is a freaky sensation and very unexplainable.

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I sometimes get really nervous on a bridge and feel like jerking the steering wheel. I start sweating and grip the wheel very hard as I try my damnedest to think of something a lot more mundane. I never knew there was a name for it. It is a freaky sensation and very unexplainable.

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I get this, too. Especially steep, tall bridges.

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Same. It's really fricking weird

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To this day, I don't know if this really happened or if I dreamed it. But when I was really little, like 5 or so, my mom took me and my brother downtown for something. We were walking back to the car, waiting to cross the street and my mom was holding both of our hands. I had this urge to run across the street, even though it was super busy and it was about a 6 lane street. I ripped away and ran across, narrowly missing being hit by a few different cars. I've never even asked if it actually happened because it kind of freaks me out to even think about it.