re: Im struggling bad this morning

Another thing I can tell you is that (for me, at least) grief comes in waves. You'll go through periods where you feel like it didn't happen, then realize it did happen, and break down all over again. You'll have times where you can fondly remember your friend and reminisce, and other times in which you don't want to talk or think about it. As time goes on, the fond reminiscing periods will hopefully take up more of your thoughts until you have thoroughly grieved. I still get pangs when I think about my grandmother not being around, but more and more often I am grateful for the time I had with her and am convinced she is in heaven watching down on me.