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Former Tiger Joseph Barksdale opens up about his depression

Posted on 2/5/18 at 6:28 pm
Posted by tduecen
Member since Nov 2006
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Posted on 2/5/18 at 6:28 pm
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Joe Barksdale has severe depression and considered suicide as recently as three months ago. The Chargers right tackle decided to share his story in hopes of helping others.

“If I could save another person, maybe that’s why the attempts [to harm myself] didn’t work,” Barksdale told Dan Woike of the Los Angeles Times.

Barksdale, 29, was physically, emotionally and sexually abused as a child, he told Woike, and he has fought his demons since. He calls his severe depression the “monkey” on his back and now takes medication and attends therapy to make it day by day.

He also has turned to music, learning to play the guitar and recently released his first album, “Butterflies, Rainbows & Moonbeams.”

“Some days, you can talk yourself out of it. Some days, you can’t. Some days, it just feels impossible,” Barksdale said. “This is who I am. I am as depressed as I am black.”

In November, Barksdale cried in the training room after finding out he would miss the next game against Jacksonville after injuring his foot in a fight with a teammate. When he got home, Barksdale said he picked up a knife. His wife, Brionna, talked him out of killing himself.

“If I let myself get sad, like really sad, it can go really bad places — like I could not be here tomorrow,” Barksdale said.

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This post was edited on 2/5/18 at 6:59 pm
Posted by Honest Tune
Louisiana
Member since Dec 2011
15613 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 6:33 pm to
Hope he can cope, seems like a good guy.

ETA: posting this is a good idea, as I'm sure his Tiger fam will show the love.
This post was edited on 2/5/18 at 6:46 pm
Posted by Hold That Tiger 10
Member since Oct 2013
21074 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 6:34 pm to
That sucks. Glad he is getting the help he needs.
Posted by bobbyleewilliams
Tigertown
Member since Feb 2010
8267 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 7:19 pm to
Big Joe, if you see this thread I hope you know there are a lot of LSU fans and your former teammates who hold you in the highest esteem. You are in my prayers.
Posted by TheWalrus
Member since Dec 2012
40546 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 7:32 pm to
I’ve suffered and I’ve had the most loving family ever, must be so much harder for those who have been abused.
Posted by AA77
Member since Jan 2016
3796 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 7:34 pm to
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In November, Barksdale cried in the training room after finding out he would miss the next game against Jacksonville after injuring his foot in a fight with a teammate. When he got home, Barksdale said he picked up a knife. His wife, Brionna, talked him out of killing himself.


Damn he was in a dark place, good to see that he's getting help, he's a hell of a player.
Posted by Shoalwater Cat
Pville
Member since Dec 2017
698 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 7:41 pm to
It doesn't matter who you are it can be debilitating. Pray for the best for him.
Posted by Bayou
CenLA
Member since Feb 2005
36826 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 7:46 pm to
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Big Joe, if you see this thread I hope you know there are a lot of LSU fans and your former teammates who hold you in the highest esteem. You are in my prayers.

Ditto! Amen!

There are many people out there that are depressed and are too afraid to bring it up with someone else. Emotional abuse is a terrible killer. Emotional issues are rampant with so many people. If you feel depressed DON'T stuff it. It ain't going away, ok?

Joe sounds like he has a good woman by his side. Jesus loves you as much as anyone else on this planet.
Posted by AA77
Member since Jan 2016
3796 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 8:19 pm to
Prayers sent up, sounds like he has a hell of a woman in his life, that always helps.
Posted by Tiger Voodoo
Champs 03 07 09 11(fack) 19!!!
Member since Mar 2007
21785 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 8:27 pm to
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Big Joe, if you see this thread I hope you know there are a lot of LSU fans and your former teammates who hold you in the highest esteem. You are in my prayers.



This this this.

Joe, you impressed all of us when you enrolled early as the first Tiger ever from the state of Michigan, something I know made Coach Miles especially proud.

Then, despite being one of the best defensive lineman prospects in the country, you selflessly switched to the offensive side of the ball and became an important contributor in winning the national championship, again something that must have been a special bond for you and Coach Miles. You bolstered that depleted unit over the next three years and represented the purple and gold with class all the way to the NFL, where you continue to be a special talent.


You are smart man, with many talents far beyond the gridiron. And most importantly, you have a family that needs you to be the strong presence that you may have missed out on in your young life. They deserve to know you, and you deserve to see all the great things they will go on to achieve in their lives.

You have given them opportunities that many parents can only dream that they could provide for their children, and for that you should have well deserved pride. Now allow yourself to be a part of everything that this life has to offer them and yourself.


But no words do better justice to what you have left to accomplish on this Earth than your own:


quote:

”I want to be a Hall of Fame right tackle,” Barksdale said. “I want to be the best dad in the world to my daughter, the best husband I can be, the best brother I can be, the best friend. I want to reach my goals and still be a good human, if that makes sense. …


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Tiger Nation is proud of you, and wishes all the best for you and your family.

FOREVER LSU
This post was edited on 2/5/18 at 8:51 pm
Posted by I20goon
about 7mi down a dirt road
Member since Aug 2013
12903 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 8:40 pm to
Joe, if you see this, remember one thing:

You are not, will never be, and have done enough to ever be considered a failure.

No injury, missed assignment, or day that you don't feel like you can face the world will ever change that.

You do not have to live up to anyone else's standard now. Those days are gone. You are you, and that's more than any of us can ever ask for.
Posted by TigerLunatik
Baton Rouge, LA
Member since Jan 2005
93703 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 8:42 pm to
shite, man, I wish depression was something that was easier to understand. How do you help someone when what they're going through makes no sense to you whatsoever?
Posted by hophead
Member since Nov 2007
1971 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 10:00 pm to
Joe, it seems like you've learned a lot. You've learned the academic Vs athletic. You've learned the A Vs the C. Raise your child the best you know how. I'm a baseball guy. I played public school in new Orleans. I can beat the best but I did not play the best. Raise your young to be the best. Pm me if you want to chat. I'm your senior. Your young is our future
Posted by Froman
Baton Rouge
Member since Jun 2007
36220 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 10:15 pm to
I met Joe in his first fall semester. Very, very intelligent dude. I hope he gets through this.
Posted by rpg37
Ocean Springs, MS
Member since Sep 2008
47454 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 10:18 pm to
This is the real shite in life. Deserves a sticky. A true Tiger willing to share his story that could save a life.
Posted by LSUcajun77
New Orleans
Member since Nov 2008
21270 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 10:38 pm to
Unfortunately, sometimes all the support in the world doesn’t make a difference.
Depression is an evil and taxing disorder.
It has a mind of its own, and can control even the strongest people.
It’s a day by day situation that can be maintained, but never truly dismissed.
So glad he has found help with medication and therapy.
He will fight this for the rest of his life, we can only hope he has more better days than bad.

Joe, you’re not alone, buddy. Do things you enjoy, talk about it as much as you can and never give up. You can still live a meaniful life and find happiness.
Tiger Nation loves you!

This post was edited on 2/5/18 at 10:39 pm
Posted by Ponchy Tiger
Ponchatoula
Member since Aug 2004
45133 posts
Posted on 2/5/18 at 11:13 pm to
Prayers to him in his struggle. Depression is a weird thing. I have had my moments like many others have but never anywhere near the point where suicide crossed my mind. I used to be very hard in my opinion of suicide and people who attempt it. But as I have gotten older my views have changed. I still think it is one of the most selfish acts a person can commit. But at the same time. I cannot fathom the shear hopelessness and dispair one must feel to want to take their own life.
Posted by Bayou
CenLA
Member since Feb 2005
36826 posts
Posted on 2/6/18 at 5:27 am to
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shite, man, I wish depression was something that was easier to understand. How do you help someone when what they're going through makes no sense to you whatsoever?

Many people feel this way and to a great extent you are right. Sometimes people don't need help at all - just someone to listen to them.
Posted by Relham10
Ridge
Member since Jan 2013
15655 posts
Posted on 2/6/18 at 5:38 am to
Joe is such a cool dude. Been a fan of his for awhile. Not just a good football player but a funny and talented guy. He always posts pitures and videos of him pranking and messing with his teammates. I payed some games with him on playstation awhile back. Really hope he finds his peace. You have alot going for you Joe, tiger fans, YOUR fans are proud of you and wish you the best.
Posted by TexasTiger89
Houston, TX
Member since Feb 2005
24304 posts
Posted on 2/6/18 at 5:51 am to
Prayers for Joe
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