My Apology to the Board for my Conduct (Why I Am The Result Of Feminism)

*Please be respectful and read the post, I know it's long*

It's time for me to come clean on this board for why I am like I am. I know many of you all think I'm simply a troll, or someone's alter, I assure you I am not. I am a true person and I don't fit the stereotype of who you think I am. I come to you with genuine thoughts and viewpoints, not just someone looking for a reaction. I know many of you won't ready my apology because of its length but I appreciate those who take the time to actually read it.

You have to understand why I am the way I am. I am the result of feminism and I am what feminists say should be an incredibly desirable man. It's ironic because the rest of my family is very conservative and my dad is a wonderful man, but by God he doesn't know how to communicate with women and therefore I essentially never learned how to communicate with women.

Yes I am have never been in a long term romantic relationship, I have never had sex, I have never had any success with women. When I see a movie like the 40 Year Old Virgin, I laugh but I also cry, because in many ways that is me (without the cool collection of stuff worth half a million dollars, lol). During that movie when he is asked why he is a virgin he says this:

- At first I assumed it would happen and it never happened.
- Then I started doing everything to make it happen and it never happened.
- Then I got really weirded out by the fact it hadn't happened and then it really didn't happen.
- Finally I just stopped trying.

Yes this is absolutely the phases I went through as well, but in the final stage I took it another step. I have stopped trying and I also became angry. I tried to treat women with the upmost respect, as true equals, and they spat in my face (luckily literally, not actually doing it). Women rejected me so I rejected them back.

I am what women say they want, a modern man, a metrosexual man who enjoys traveling, the arts and is okay with doing traditionally women activities such as cleaning. I am respectful of women, I treat women as equals, I am not crude, I don't come home hammered drunk (well I did in college, not nowadays, not worth it). I am not someone who should've been unable to attract a woman. This is where feminism is so hypocritical, they say they want a man like me but then choose the steroid work out guy, or the bad boy biker with good looks but no personality or money.

Yes I might not have millions of dollars, or look like a hollywood actor, or have some heart of gold at all times, but I was not a bad catch. I don't deny that the rejection hurts, it does everyday. Falling for women who were already taken, for women who would ultimate reject me, yes it was hard and for awhile it broke me as a person.