re: Have any of you had a child die ?

The strangest thing is how efficiently life goes on.

It's a blessing and a curse.

Our daughter passed in September and our world literally stopped. But at some point you have to get moving again. So we did.

Back at work, back with friends and family. It helps to keep living and cherishing the time we have with our amazing son (he's almost 4).

However, some days, I want the world to stop again. I don't want it to be real, I don't want to see happy people with amazing, healthy babies, I don't want to talk about trivial, banal things.

But the world keeps on chugging along and life the keeps on rolling along.

I'm an old man (by OT and baby-making standards), so I don't know if the wife and I will try again.

There was a moment in NICU when her medication was waning and she opened her eyes. I just happened to be standing over the box when it happened. I looked into her eyes and it was the most terrifying moment of helplessness I've ever felt.

She closed her eyes and I never saw them again. I'd give anything to go back to that moment and hit pause. anything.

Be good to your babies. Be good to everybody.