So why would He need to answer your questions, if truly you don't believe? You first say you are looking for a reason to believe and then you say you don't believe.
When I was asking these questions, I was going to church and wanted to believe
. During that time,
I was never given a reason to believe, so today, I don't believe. How does that not make sense?
Normal people don't just believe stories that they can't make sense of.