re: Do you ever feel like someone is watching you; even inside your home?

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I have been clean since September 2020.

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bullshite. Reminds me of when Courtney Love was out of her mind on heroin and Jeff Ross roasted her:

How is it possible that Courtney Love looks worse than Kurt Cobain

Go into detox tomorrow.

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No drugs, but tbh, I feel like I can see behind the curtain. It seems like we have layers on top of layers which exist all as the same point, but pressure inside that point is our existence. We consume food, that used to consume energy, everything is just a transfer of energy.

I'm not certain if we see the real picture anymore, the way we perceive reality is just perceived.

I've been think a lot about life, especially plant life. We look of it as non-consious, but watching time lapse of plants respond to certain inputs is interesting. What if we move at the speed of a plant as we perceive it, but something observes us as we observe a plant, relative to time.

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Listen, I once tripped so hard I felt the grass scream in pain below me and a hot dog started lecturing me. But that was a hell of an 8 hour trip. You’ve been off your rocker for quite a while. Time to call a buddy who loves you and will take care of you for the night. You are not talking like anyone remotely sober. Been down that trail, so I hear you, but I’m off it and you think you are too. Call a close friend, and if you don’t have one nearby unfortunately a family member to babysit you and walk you through this. You need it.