re: Why is Forgiving Yourself so Hard?

I think it's time you start listening to your own advice and actually putting it into action. If you feel this remourseful about what you've done, and you continue to do it, it might be time for a change. Maybe stop hanging around those people that are enabling the problem. Maybe start listening to those who love you and want what's best for you. As someone already mentioned earlier, maybe going back to church and looking back to your faith. Don't dwell on the past. It's over and done with and nothing you can do will change it. It's time to move on from it. If you can't accept that, you won't ever be able to forgive yourself. Bottom line is, if you don't like something about yourself, but only do the minimum to change it, you're probably going to do it again. You have to WANT to change and be willing to make those changes and never look back. I'm sure you've heard that before. Just my 2 cents...

I'm mean what did you do spend like 4K on some blow? Or just get a little? If it's just a little forget about it and move on. If it's more than a one night thing and just had a good time then ask yourself why. Either way just move on. It's not too big of a deal. At least it wasn't heroin