re: For those thinking about suicide

Just a month ago my best friend killed himself. We were like brothers and very close. He had gotten married 2 months prior. I was a groomsman in his wedding and he was supposed to be the best man in my upcoming wedding.
When I heard I was in complete shock, honestly I still am. I still struggle with it daily but I have to keep moving on for my own family. I feel absolutely terrible for his mother and wife. They will be scarred for the rest of their lives.

I know some of the details that led him to this, but never saw him making such a drastic move. He reached out to me and we talked about things, but I showed him tough love and told him to man up. I now question if I was too harsh. Had I just listened to him and talked more in depth with him about what he was struggling with, maybe I could have helped and he'd still be here.
I'll never now, but I sure as hell wonder and think about it every day. I miss him. Miss the crazy text and conversations, the laughs, the good times.