re: Have you ever wanted to beat the crap out of your best friend?

The summer before my freshman year of college I was out with my three best friends and all of our other friends (kind of a clique within a group). We left the party in three separate cars, two of my best friends in one car. Those two were struck head on by a drunk driver and both died.

Three days later, during my friends' joint funeral and procession, my third and last best friend killed himself. He did not leave a note. He told his parents he couldn't go to the funeral and after they left to go he cut his wrists in the bathtub.

I was very angry for a while after that happened, then very depressed (hospitalized at one point), and then everything was okay after I made some new friends.

I still keep a "relic" from my friends, it is this little plastic bath duck that my friend found in his car when he bought it used. It was always on the dash of his car, and now it stays with me always. It went to Europe with me a few years later even.

TL,DR: It sucks and I've been angry at the same thing, but it gets better with time.

Sorry for your loss.