re: Alcoholism: Why it sucks.

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I just don't have the desire to quit because it is not affecting my work

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I hope it never does. As my drinking progressed over the years and my decision making suffered, it ended up getting the best of me. I had 10 years with a major top 2 oilfield service company in management. 2 kids, wife who didn't have to work, great job. My wife is ADD, and I never really liked adddderal, but I found that it helped me on bad hangover days. So, I had taken some on a Friday morning. Got popped for a random on Monday, fired on Friday. Job performance was outstanding. Had days before got $25K in restricted stock, $20K cash bonus, etc. My boss said their hands were tied. Fired with option to become eligible for rehire. They couldn't take me back in the same city and wanted me to apply in other regions, but "I" would ultimately never be seen as the same again. Decided to start over with a new company.

Nothing like having to come home and tell your wife you lost your job, to look at your kids and see their happiness, their content with finally settling in a new city and making friends... to have to pull them from private schools... uproot them. etc. etc. Pretty selfish moves by me over those years.

So, I hope it never progresses. "It will never happen to me" is a book my mom gave me 25 years ago b/c of my pops alcoholism. Ha, sure it will. Pops is on the liver transplant list with 46 years of daily drinking. Meanwhile, I managed to land on my feet and love life even more than before.