re: Have you seen a loved one in a state that crushed you…

Grandma, going through altzimers.
Aunt going through cancer, looking like a skeleton in the hospital bed with a few months left.
Cousin, getting addicted to meth showing up at a wedding looking like a skeleton.
Then my ex, after getting ran through by 3/4 dudes off dating sites. Hooking up, re-kindling, telling me she can't see me bc of my job, being gone for weeks at a time, doing offshore work. Got into the field bc I literally had no other option after getting laid off 2x then having a business fail.

I mean, it's life, nothing is perfect, nothing last forever and I've been fortunate to get out of some debt. Just wish I had more confidence in day to day life. I've been thinking about calling califoenia physics, at least I can pay them 1/min to listen to me talk. It can be lonely out here. You ever feel like you don't belong here anymore?