re: Dear diary, tired of living (update pg 14)

Good morning
Man I get it. I have been there with the sleepless nights, the feeling of hopelessness and inadequacy. It is… A very deep hole. 2018, I was in the same boat, the same shoes andI felt I had no options. Look man if you got 8 people in your life then you got be me beat today. I think the only thing that changed from a deep pit to seeing the light of day and the value of life is that I stopped looking at my own afflictions and started searching for the good things I had. I couldn’t see them because I was laser focused on the bad. For some reason I changed my thoughts and started appreciating my job, I went to church and found the goodness of God which was the one thing I needed the most and I began to see how rich I was in some ways. I became to be grateful. if that even makes sense.
Don’t give up. Write down change and do something like serve others. Church helps especially if you can find a healthy one. Your definitely of value. You are a man that has value. Keep moving. Keep pushing and life will change and you will then be able to help others.
God bless you bro.