re: When you get so depressed….

I feel your pain, as I battle this almost daily. I get suicidal easily.

First look into therapy. Treat that shite like a lawyer after you just committed murder-be as open and honest as possible. Second, talk to a psychiatrist. They can administer a series of tests to try and pin down a specific diagnosis, then treat with meds if necessary. It’s helpful if you can do both in one clinic.

Finally, look to see if tms if available in your area. That and meditation have helped me more than medication. It’s expensive though. In MS insurance only covers it for “severe depression “.