re: My testimony... I pray this will speak to someone.

Totally understand your struggle, living the life of a devout Christian is not an easy life, seems the forces of evil really ramp up the attacks when you give your life to Christ.... but it's a blessed life.

Most Christians have not been completely unburdened from the sin they sought for earthly pleasure at the moment of their salvation. Sanctification is an important aspect for any Christian who is truly trying to develop an intimate relationship with the Creator/Jesus Christ/Holy Spirit. I too struggled with pornography and alcohol, I still do on occasion but the frequency is becoming less and less.

When I was baptized last summer I told the pastor who was performing the baptism that I wanted less of me and more of Jesus in my life, in my heart, in my soul, and in my personality. I have also accepted that I will never be strong enough to resist every temptation of the flesh but I also know if I pray with conviction and contrition the Holy Spirit will strengthen me to resist sin and my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ will forgive me of my sin.

Thanks for sharing your testimony, it certainly spoke to me, it's something that every Christian needs to do every once and a while. The minimum Christ requires of Believers is to share the gospel and a good testimony is a close second.