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To preface: I'm 17, was fairly mentally sound before this experience although I was seeing a therapist for anxiety and obsessive thoughts. Sorry about the wall of text. You don't need to read it, it just feels good to write it down. 6 months ago I decided that I would take a small amount of shrooms and go for a walk in some freshly fallen snow after returning home from school. I ate approx. .5 grams that I had acquired from a friend and set out through my neighborhood. Now I had tripped twice before this, once on 1 gram and once on 5. Both of those experiences were wonderful and I expected nothing less from this one. I mean .5 is hardly anything compared to 5 grams right? Wrong. Not when your friend makes a mistake when informing you what strain they are. So I unknowingly ingested around 3 or so grams worth of shrooms when I expected a mere minor change in headspace. Long story short, I had a panic attack during the come up and was left disoriented and frightened. Got lost, got caught by parents and ultimately had a train wreck of a night. But surprisingly, that wasn't the traumatic part of the experience. The part that still haunts me half a year later. During the peak, I felt a terror greater than anything I could ever even begin to describe. Everything I knew and loved, family, friends, memories, everything, was torn away. All was lost. All was hollow. I became the only conscious being in existence and the room around me existed as nothing more than a facade, covering up incomprehensible emptiness. This was a theme I had experienced in the prior trips but I never read too much into it however this time, being so vulnerable, I was unable to face it nor push it away. I broke down, I simply couldn't stand it, I distracted myself in every way possible until I eventually came down and went to sleep. Well, it didn't go away. Derealization, hourly panic attacks, suicidal depression, cutting, all this resulted from a trip that was too overwhelming to face. I dropped out of school for a month, was in and out of the ER for suicide attempts, was put on Seroquel, Celexa, and Ativan. Nothing helped. I spent 3 weeks living in an inpatient home and have tried several other different antidepressants over the course of the last 6 months. I was living in pure hell. The feelings of hollowness and detachment have still not broken. I even lost my virginity during this period and felt absolutely nothing. Friendships and relationships have been destroyed, my family has pretty much given up hope on me. I was a straight A student until this happened and now my parents figure I'll be lucky to get a job as a cashier because of my emotional instability. I haven't done anything hallucinogenic since that bad trip, however I have smoked weed on occasion (I've given it up as it makes anxiety worse) and I don't plan on it so please don't advise me to "trip again." I recently stopped Prozac and Ativan and have been doing surprisingly well. None of these medications did anything to help, they just made me more numb so I'm currently discounting them from my treatment plan. I'm seeing a therapist who is working with me on sorting out the trip as I have been diagnosed with PTSD from it. I'm posting here as a plea for help. I'm young, I have my whole life ahead of me, but at this moment in time it doesn't look too bright. I know I was stupid and irresponsible with that drug and I curse myself everyday for it. I need advice from people who are understanding, who have gone through this and who don't think I'm schizophrenic for having derealization and HPPD. How can I start life over? I realize this is a big question but I'm only looking for little answers. Things you've done to help in the darkest times that I can give a shot.



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Burt Reynolds
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I was walking along the beach today, looking at the waves, slowly watching the tide go out... Then, I got to thinking of other planets, and how their are now earth like planets being discovered... Then, I thought about how the tide is caused by our one moons gravitational pull, and how tides caused micro-organisms that spawned into life millions of years ago on this earth... ... Then I thought, of how our oceans move stable from one moon, caused by a 2nd planet that collided into earth at one point when it was a molten hot rock. causing two spheres to revolve around each other... That happened at one particular point of time, so did the meteor impact that caused the dinosaurs to be extinct, leading to mammals to rule the Earth. If, on those other planets, they didn't have another planet smashing into it at one point, or a meteor to wipe out a past species like we had on our planet, how likely is it that humans are around at this particular time in space in the Universe? And to think we've been around for just a few thousand years?! It's like, no matter what, to find a planet with intelligent life like ours, is almost certainly impossible. Either they exited millions of years before us, or will exist millions of years in the future, the possibility of two worlds never meeting each other in our vastness of all space in the universe is actually possible. It is irony, that says we are likely all going to live on our separate planets and will never be able to greet each other.






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I'm out.





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"DUDE YEA MAN IM TOTALLY FROM RADO I JUST frickING LOVE THE MOUNTAINS AND SHREDDIN THE POW ALL DAY WHILE RAGING GREAT TUNES. YEA I GO TO CU BOULDER AND CATCH RIPPIN SHOWS ALL frickIN DAY AT THE DOPEST SPOTS THAT HAVE THE FIRE LOCAL BREW ON TAP MOST DEF. YO BRAH HAVE YOU MET MY BOY BRAD HE HAS BEEN WRAPPING FOR LIKE A YEAR OR MORE AND HIS shite IS SO frickING FILTHY AND MY BUDDY CHAD IS A DOPE GLASS DESIGNER CUSTOMS ONLY BRO. YOU COMIN TO TRIBE THIS WEEKEND ON THE ROCKS? WHAT ABOUT LOTUS? YOU INTO THAT SCENE OR WHAT? CUZ IF YOU ARE I CAN GET YOU THE frickING DOPEST GRASSROOTS FITTED FROM MY BOY IN BOULDER YEAH THAT'S RIGHT BOULDER BRO. HEY MAN WANNA SMOKE SOME OF THIS FLAME EARL THAT MY BOU SQUIRRELS BLASTS? OH NAH YOU ONLY ABOUT THAT FLOW? THAT FLOWER ALL DAY? DUDE YOU CAME TO THE RIGHT frickIN STATE BRO RADO RAGERS AND HEADY arse CHICKS WHO JUST LOVE SHREDDIN SOME JER AND TOSSIN THE NODS HIS WAY ON THE REG"






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what kind of ending was that bull shite. What happened to her? Gangrene of the vag or something?





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Burt Reynolds
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that reminds me a lot of the days when me and andre were living in the breck terraces. going from door to door trying to score some l or moon rocks on a cold night, 16 below. Used to go out and steall all of the employees snowobords so that they had to ride the gondola back down after work. Andre used to get mad liquid at the breck terraces brah. we were basically swimming in liquids and mass amounts of shards and glass. andre and i fricking ice skated on shards at the mimosa/archnemeisis shows. frickin Big gigantic brah. domininic lolli got us in for free. put us on the vip list at breck 320 south and i raged face breh. I ripped a few titanium d rings in andre's truck then roollled inside. Soon as we walk in the door Dom DROPS the bass and kills it with sky high and lucid dreams. Went back to the terraces that night circle jereked and played video games until 7 in the morning. Woke shredded that breck pow with the bros. nothing like it





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smoking flame earl with your boy squirrels





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hat reminds me a lot of the days when me and andre were living in the breck terraces. going from door to door trying to score some l or moon rocks on a cold night, 16 below. Used to go out and steall all of the employees snowobords so that they had to ride the gondola back down after work. Andre used to get mad liquid at the breck terraces brah. we were basically swimming in liquids and mass amounts of shards and glass. andre and i fricking ice skated on shards at the mimosa/archnemeisis shows. frickin Big gigantic brah. domininic lolli got us in for free. put us on the vip list at breck 320 south and i raged face breh. I ripped a few titanium d rings in andre's truck then roollled inside. Soon as we walk in the door Dom DROPS the bass and kills it with sky high and lucid dreams. Went back to the terraces that night circle jereked and played video games until 7 in the morning. Woke shredded that breck pow with the bros. nothing like it







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the resemblance is striking





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Andre
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What's funny is that story is 90% true





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Spaulding Smails
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What's funny is that story is 90% true

I believe it...that sounds like standard procedure while living in Brahlorado

I was a copper mountain and steamboat dude






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I was a copper mountain and steamboat dude








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copper mountain
Tucker Mountain back bowls






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Burt Reynolds
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quote: copper mountain Tucker Mountain back bowls

What a n00b






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Spaulding Smails
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Yeah, n!&&@$






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CaptainPanic
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Psh I'll have one up on you after Niseko next New Years





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danman6336
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lolskiing





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Burt Reynolds
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Psh I'll have one up on you after Niseko next New Years



You'll never be as heady as me. Not even close.







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