I think I have battered wife syndrome...Les Miles

Les has hurt me bad...he's going to hurt me bad again...it's his nature...I know this but try to convince myself it isn't so. I want to give him a pass because when he hurts me, it's not him that's doing it, it's the pressure (or OC) that's making him do it...in those situations, he's just not himself...he's not the man I know him to be.

He has a good heart and is very good to his kids. If I lose him, I might never find another man who treats the kids this well or loves them as much. Sure, he is flawed. Sure, his biggest flaws result in me whimpering in a corner a few times a year. But I'm not perfect either.

The kids adore him, so I'll hide my tears, swallow my two, three, four or five unjustified beatings a year, and I'll portray outward support for him.

I'll do it for the kids...that's what I'll do.