re: Depression- PAGING TheWalrus- how have you overcome it?

I’m so very sorry about all you’re going through! In addition to serious depression, you also have chronic pain, which alone is horrific. I’ve dealt with severe depression recently due to the unexpected death of someone close about a year ago. Here’s what’s helped me, although I still struggle: 1) Leaning on my immediate family for support (You’d have to allow yourself to lean. Your family/close ones will be there for you. Trust me on this.). 2) Talk therapy with a professional therapist, regularly. Mine is a PhD psychologist. He’s still doing telehealth following COVID, so it’s nice and easy not having to get out if you’re not up for that. Ask. 3) Walks around my neighborhood which indirectly helped me reconnect just a bit with my sweet neighbors. No matter how short the walk. Your neighbors are likely interested in you and looking to make connections too. This has lifted my spirits unexpectedly, even if the connections are brief. 4) When you feel ready, make a list of friends/relatives you’d love to be in touch with/possibly see more, and slowly, one by one, initiate contact, even if only by text. You will realize people care about you more than you would think and they will respond positively. It helps.
You’re sincerely in my prayers and I really hope you can find solutions that help you.